same old same old

it's like I have a large freaking button that certain circumstances/events seem to push, over and over again. sheesh, I say to myself, get over it already! but the button is pushed and the anger leaps up. then I have choices, choose your battles, I know this lesson. but anger pushes me to act, even when I know it will not help and likely won't change a gosh darn thing. So, what to do with the anger, the frustration....damned if I know. So I just blog about it, journaling of olden days... neuroplasticity, writing creates a pathway for anger, for this feeling, this event to move from short term memory,where it keeps looping and triggering biological responses, to long term memory, where I can reflect on it, consider how I felt and be calm. I really prefer calm, so I write. it is better sometimes than throwing a tantrum which is what I feel like doing... instead I will distract my wee brain with some word games on the internet, and then off to sleep, perchance to dream...